So I started working three weeks ago, and this is my fourth week (wow time flies!)...

It's going good. I dont actually get any critique so it's up to me really to constantly improve myself because I dont like making mistakes.

However, it's unpaid, but I like my work.

Now I say I like it, but I actually love it. You see, it's hard for me to actually say that because it means that I have a goal...and my fear is that I won't reach it. But I suppose I should be confidence in what I want and go towards it. So many times I have said this and it never worked out, so now I am scared to actually admit because I will actually be devastated if this doesnt work out either. Devastated. But I suppose that's the risk you take in setting goals. You work towards it and see it where it takes you.

I want to progress into mergers and acquisitions but dont know what internship/paid job I will come across next. Do you see the worry in all of this? There are major insecurities.

That, and I have no credit card to fall back on. So now, I have to squeeze the living daylights out of every pound...walk 40 minutes to work and basically you know, deal with life as it comes.

Pray for me. Seriously, no idea where I am going from here.


Belle